Life has changed a lot in the short time since I have posted. My husband and I of 18 years has decided to once again separate. We were separated for a year and a half and then reconciled for 7 months. The reconciliation didn't make it, I'm sorry to say. There is a time to mourn and a time to laugh the Bible says and now isn't a laughing time for me. As a matter of fact, the death of anything or anybody dear to us leaves us asking the big question, WHY?
I am so thankful that God just holds us close to his heart and lets us beat against his chest as we ask it. I am feeling a little like a female Job right now. My husband is gone, my son is in prison and my daughter doesn't want to live here when my son returns home. I know it can be worse, but somehow that doesn't take the pain away.
Not to mention the bills piling up as the checkbook dwindles. But, that is the least of my concerns.
I told you that some field trips aren't easy and this is one of them. I am going to praise God for my many many blessings and most of all for his presence in my life. I look for the blessings each step. I have found many!!
My daughter's heart is softening some. The hurt and bitterness will be melted like snow as spring approaches. This is just a season. We are all in good health. My mother's blood clot is dissolving. My friends in Christ are holding my arms up in the battle and lacing my boots once again. I still have a home and a job. Dastena is growing in her faith in spite of the problems. She sees us depending on God to get us to the next field trip. My son is reading his Bible and learning to play guitar in prison for the worship services there. God is blessing the Medlock Juvenile Prison Ministry and it is awesome to be a part of that. I have so MUCH to praise for him in this storm because the rainbow is a promise.
God is faithful!!
Looking at the rainbow through the clouds,
Dee Ann
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